First... The first of FIRSTS for Jer and I...

Blackbird... Beatles...



If you have ever felt as if you were the "Black Sheep" or the "Black Bird" - this song is everything... Blackbird FLY... Into the LIGHT OF THE DARK BLACK NIGHT... uh huh... good shit!

Lyrics:

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise...

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Father and Son... Cat Stevens...

Since Jer and I have been together - this has been ONE (of many) his favorite songs... Right now... Jer's in tears thinking about Daddy Jack... but still... Cat Stevens.. Father and Son...




Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to know.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.

I was once like you are now, and I know that it's not easy,
To be calm when you've found something going on.
But take your time, think a lot,
Why, think of everything you've got.
For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again.
It's always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
It's not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.
You're still young, that's your fault,
There's so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
if you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.
(Son-- Away Away Away, I know I have to
Make this decision alone - no)
Son
All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside,
It's hard, but it's harder to ignore it.
If they were right, I'd agree, but it's them They know not me.
Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.
(Father-- Stay Stay Stay, Why must you go and
make this decision alone?)

Am I really "splaining??" Lucy??? where are you???

I'm back... I've been lax in posting - I've been lax on working out and eating right - I've been lax on almost everything in life other than getting into this freaking house!!! haha...

Jer just said that we need to 'become MACHINES' on this property...uh... yeah... we have no choice...

New Years Resolutions... NONE... Goals... MANY...

1. BE ON TOP OF THE WORLD owning 10 acres and a beautiful little farm house...

2. STAY POSITIVE when little (or BIG) things happen... Shit happens - we know it... Seriously - I took out the side of my Durango this week because I wasn't paying attention... THAT IS A FLIP OUT moment... but for whatever reason I didn't... I'm hoping and PRAYING that I can stay positive when things of that nature go wrong with out domicile... It's gonna happen - I know it... STAY POSITIVE SUNSHINE!!!

3. GET FIT... Like seriously GET FIT... I've been making excuses - seriously... And because I've been making so many excuses I've gained the 10 (or 12) lbs. back that I lost a few months ago... I HAVE to get back on the treadmill... I HAVE to quit smoking... I have to chill on the Ultra's... I have TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much to do to be fat and have a bad body image... I'm better than that... But dammit - MY PANTS ARE TIGHT! FAT PANTS ARE TIGHT! GET ON IT HEATHER!

4. BE A BETTER PARTNER... My husband... Is a good and loving man... A good father... A good husband... A good man... He literally LIVES to make me happy... I will make that easier for him. My demons are MINE... not his... I WILL chill... I will make life easier for him... Because HE makes life easier for me... and I'm blessed to have someone who lives to LIVE for someone else...

5. BE MORE PLAYFUL... I am interally by nature - entirely too serious. Details details details... Clean clean clean... perfect perfect perfect... It is to my detriment that I am the way I am... Although I'm extremly proud of being on top of things - I need to chill - not only on myself - but on everyone around me. Stop worrying so much... Let the kids BE FREE and really EXPERIENCE life... The fullness and the bounty that we've given them... Momma needs to be more playful.

6. GIVE GOD ALL OF THE GLORY... This should be NUMBER 1!... And it really is... We will - as a family - find a church that is our HOME... Our children deserve to know the Glory of God and Jesus... all of the BOUNTY... Love, Faith, Hope and the treasure of being a Christ follower... I didn't know this as a child - but for some reason have always FELT IT... It is EVERYTHING to me... I will not force them to believe - but I will show them the way... Atleast they have the knowledge... Something that I didn't have...


7. TEACH MY CHILDREN WELL... I'm listening to Crosby Stills Nash and Young - Teach Your Children Well... My wonderful precious loving God... YES!!!!

You who are on the road
Must have a code that you can live by
And so become yourself
Because the past is just a good bye.

Teach your children well,
Their father's hell did slowly go by,
And feed them on your dreams
The one they picked, the one you'll know by.

Don't you ever ask them why, if they told you, you would cry,
So just look at them and sigh and know they love you.

And you, of tender years,
Can't know the fears that your elders grew by,
And so please help them with your youth,
They seek the truth before they can die.

Can you hear and do you care and
Cant you see we must be free to
Teach your children what you believe in.
Make a world that we can live in.

Teach your parents well,
Their children's hell will slowly go by,
And feed them on your dreams
The one they picked, the one you'll know by.

Don't you ever ask them why, if they told you, you would cry,
So just look at them and sigh and know they love you.


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Really??? Pretty fuuuhhhreaking cool...

Ok... so... We're having fun... :)

So - who would have thought that I would snug up to this farm-ranch style way of living??? I had an idea and very much ALOT.... and by ALOT I mean ALOT of hope that I would figure my way around not living in a perfect-ish cracker box home... Guess what... I'm totally digging it... Like - totally.

Last night... New Year Eve - I spent atleast 2 hours BLEACHING and STEAMING the master bath toilet... yes, I know we've been here almost two weeks - but I have toilet phobia... seriously... My dad put on a new seat for me - so I figured that if I didn't touch anything else I was fine... at this point we could eat off of the f**ker... not kidding!

Anyway - we hung a few pictures and a mirror and it's now starting to look more like "our" home... The kids are warm and snuggy in bed sleeping soundly... Video to show A LITTLE progress:





Let's see if those work!! haha

Literally - BEST DAY EVER!!!!!

I don't know if anyone has ever seen the Spongebob Episode "Best Day Ever"???? Well... if you have or haven't - today has been the best day ever... My daughter has had THE BOMBEST of the BOMB time today running around in circles on HER land in the snow... She made little (really shallow) snow angels - tried to make a snowman... HAD A GRAND ASS TIME!

Have entirely too many videos to post - but as anyone knows me - I'm a posty posterton! :)

Here are tonights 3.....







Wait until tomorrow... uber fun to be had!!!! LOVE to all!!!

Haden's Christmas Program - 2009

Last night was fun... Haden and Holton looked adorable in their matchy matchy outfits I found... The pants swallowed them both - shirts a bit snug - sweaters just right on both... Go figure...

Anyway - Haden did a great job performing - he did the same weird mouth thing Hannah did when she was his age performing in the same program! haha... :) (IT's ME!!!) Common denominator!

Happy Birthday Jesus:



He's such a handsome boy... Seriously - I know I'm his mom... But the kid is freaking GORGEOUS!







This was his favorite song of the program... He seems to be checking out what everyone else is doing - and we are trying to figure out our new camera... so sweet!



Ok... night all... worky worky early!!!

Much love!

JH, H, H and H

Hello MIDLOTHIAN!!!!!

YAY! It's official! We are on our way to Midlothian come Saturday! :o) We own it as of today even though we closed yesterday... (had to wait for funding!!)

ANYWAY - the reality will set in once we are there at how much really needs to be done, but right now we are celebrating that we fought a good fight and we won... There will be battles to come - but I'm blocking those out right now... (well, my left eye is blocking them so that I can still type looking with my right!) haha...

It's time to be fun, it's time to show our kids the beauty of nature, it's time for Jer and I to ROCK IT like we do... It's time for my emotional-ass to settle down and just enjoy this crazy life that we live...Because the Lord has been exceptionally good to us...

Proverbs 12: 11 hard work brings prosperity; only a fool idles away his time.

Isn't that the truth??? Jer and I have worked hard for all we've received - and been faithful in doing so... Of course, not without hitting a valley on occasion - but still... We've built a life together... and now for our children... And I can only hope and pray for the Grace of God to continue blessing our family!!!

Signing out for today... :) I might sign back in to blog about Haden's Christmas program last night... Or I might just wait for tomorrow! haha... We'll see...

Much love to you and yours!

Heather, Jer, Hannah, Haden and Holton