WHAT A MESS!!!!!!!!!

Whew... The last 3 months have been an ABSOLUTE emotional roller coaster... We've been living out of boxes tucked away in the garage for a month now - since we thought we would have already been closed and out of here atleast 2 weeks ago... New lender... Same issues-ish... Scared to death that I'm going to lead my family into financial ruin by making the wrong decisions... That's normal right? Or am I being overly cautious? Neurotic maybe?

I was reminded today by Jer (after completely throwing in the towel and giving up on the house on 663) - that I've been fighting this battle for 3 months... Tenaciously fighting... and that I'm within a week of actually winning... He said that I fought the battle and 'did it... babe... you did it...'

WHHHHHAAAA.... It made me cry. He only says that "I" won it - because I've been the one on the phone or email 24/7... Keeping track of the progress - fighting this and or that.... Basically taking the brunt of the bullshit. I call it bullshit - because really... IT IS... Red tape is what it is - BS. Especially when you have two people that are just trying to make a better life for the kids... We make decent money, have great credit, pay everyting (literally - everything) early... No debt other than my school loans and the Durango... Sorry... I guess seeing the facts in front of me as I type reiterates everything I've been dealing with over and over and over again for 3 months.

We haven't won yet. We'll see what happens in the coming days...

I do want to say - thank you to everyone who's been listening to our story - especially our family who have SERIOUSLY GOT TO BE TIRED of the ups and downs over and over again. All in all - it could be worse... We are blessed beyond blessed regardless of what happens... I asked for prayers and got a perfect one from our beautiful sister Stacey Leigh:

Dear Lord...I pray that you give Heather and Jeremy the strength to endure this difficult time. I pray that they can be patient and always remember that you are in the driver seat! Please give them the will power to let go, not worry, and let you take care of this. I pray they remember that if it is in your plan for their lives to have this house...it will be....and if it is not, I pray that they know deep down in their hearts that what you do have in store is always so much sweeter. Please give them closer soon so that their hearts may rest. Help them to be thankful for the blessings they do have that no lender, nor realtor, nor anyone sitting in an office somewhere can take away from them and that is each other and you. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

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Now... isn't that just completely IT???? Thank you Stacey - we love you and thank you for the prayers and the enlightenment.

Love you all... And many many many blessing to you and yours...

H