WHAT A MESS!!!!!!!!!

Whew... The last 3 months have been an ABSOLUTE emotional roller coaster... We've been living out of boxes tucked away in the garage for a month now - since we thought we would have already been closed and out of here atleast 2 weeks ago... New lender... Same issues-ish... Scared to death that I'm going to lead my family into financial ruin by making the wrong decisions... That's normal right? Or am I being overly cautious? Neurotic maybe?

I was reminded today by Jer (after completely throwing in the towel and giving up on the house on 663) - that I've been fighting this battle for 3 months... Tenaciously fighting... and that I'm within a week of actually winning... He said that I fought the battle and 'did it... babe... you did it...'

WHHHHHAAAA.... It made me cry. He only says that "I" won it - because I've been the one on the phone or email 24/7... Keeping track of the progress - fighting this and or that.... Basically taking the brunt of the bullshit. I call it bullshit - because really... IT IS... Red tape is what it is - BS. Especially when you have two people that are just trying to make a better life for the kids... We make decent money, have great credit, pay everyting (literally - everything) early... No debt other than my school loans and the Durango... Sorry... I guess seeing the facts in front of me as I type reiterates everything I've been dealing with over and over and over again for 3 months.

We haven't won yet. We'll see what happens in the coming days...

I do want to say - thank you to everyone who's been listening to our story - especially our family who have SERIOUSLY GOT TO BE TIRED of the ups and downs over and over again. All in all - it could be worse... We are blessed beyond blessed regardless of what happens... I asked for prayers and got a perfect one from our beautiful sister Stacey Leigh:

Dear Lord...I pray that you give Heather and Jeremy the strength to endure this difficult time. I pray that they can be patient and always remember that you are in the driver seat! Please give them the will power to let go, not worry, and let you take care of this. I pray they remember that if it is in your plan for their lives to have this house...it will be....and if it is not, I pray that they know deep down in their hearts that what you do have in store is always so much sweeter. Please give them closer soon so that their hearts may rest. Help them to be thankful for the blessings they do have that no lender, nor realtor, nor anyone sitting in an office somewhere can take away from them and that is each other and you. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

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Now... isn't that just completely IT???? Thank you Stacey - we love you and thank you for the prayers and the enlightenment.

Love you all... And many many many blessing to you and yours...

H

Halloween - A MONTH LATER!!!!

I'm really going to get better at blogging... haha... I keep saying that! haha...

Anyway - we had a great Halloween! Hannah was a 'dork-nerd' and Miranda was a Zombie... the boys were lions and Haden was Superman too... :)



Holton was TOTALLLLLLY not happy.... Alex was trying to figure things out and Haden was JUST FINE!


Han and Miranda totally Trick-r-Treating...


The boys the night before Halloween...


Anyway- it was a good night... :) Much love!

For Those who Want to know...

I've been trying not to post too much of FB about the goings on of the house - because I'm sure it's totally annoying - being that it is the ABSOLUTELY ONLY thing I can think about right now - but in all honesty - it is....

We've been up - down - right - left - upside down - right side up - you name it - we've been there emotionally over the last 2.5 months.... AND YES, we know this is not the only place on the planet - but it captured our hearts - regardless of whether we fit NOW - a 5 person family in 2 bedrooms and 1200 sq feet... haha...

ANYWAY - the latest... This afternoon after Han's doc appt. - I got a call from Ronnie, our uncle and Realtor and our lender Sam... he called in a favor - and it looks like we are now good to go. Waiting on documents from the attorney basically stating that we aren't using the property to produce income. (totally FUUUHHHH-reaking stupid if you ask me...) Wouldn't you PREFER the people BUYING and PAYING for the house and property to be making MORE money??? REGARDLESS of whether it's agriculturally or not???? whatever.... We're just ready to be done with this!

In hindsight - all of my freaking out, flipping out and basically stressing out to the point of going to bed as soon as I got home... (minor depression maybe???) - I've realized that I have no control over this situation, which is totally BLOWTSTIC for a control freak - but it just freaking IS... and dang it... I'm trying to be more like Jer I guess... and CHIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

So- right now... we're just waiting on the attorney to get the docs to our lender... and then we should be ready to close.... believe it when I see it... Everyday here is another $50 in RENT! and we can't go nuts on Christmas until after closing... so... all is on hold until we get this situation handled!!!

There ya go... That in a nutshell...

we'll see what happens tomorrow...

So this is really happening...

REALLY??? Like... REAAAAAAAAAAALLLY?.... Does anyone hear me??? REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLY???? Am I, Heather Sunshine Moorhead - MOVING TO THE COUNTRY????

UMMMMMMMMMMMM.... Holy crapola peeps.... Yes... I am. I should phrase that differently - WE are moving to the country. We are really picking up our comfy little picture perfect (boring) life - and moving on to an adventure of a lifetime....

I'm excited, anxious, nervous, happy, freaked out, - ummm excited (yes I said that twice) - at this whole crazy insanity that we are venturing towards.

Momma is going to be happy... My babies are going to be happy... My husband is going to be happy.... YAY! (han's freaking a bit - but she is like her mother - so.... that being said - she'll come around like I do... all the time... haha)

Anyway - going to bed now... Heading out early to the Air Show... the boys are going to LOVE it... :)

Yay! Picture time for momma!!!

Much love - Heather

Under the Weather this Week....

Well, for someone who seems to have an iron clad immune system - I'm feeling pretty crappy today. Not sure if it is allergy related or if I'm really getting sick but I know it isn't fun!!! Anyway - onto more exciting new...

The house on 663 in Midlothian is still in play. We had the inspection done last Wednesday and on Thursday we cancelled the contract. Almost everything that could be deficient (roof, foundation, electrical, septic) - was. While walking away was hard - we definitely don't have the $$ to do all of the renovations that we want to do AND repair everything and STILL pay 190K for the place...

We got a call on Saturday from Ronnie explaining that the seller had no idea there were so many issues with his house and didn't want us to think he was trying to pull one over on us. He agreed to make all the necessary repairs as well as accept 180K, still pay 10K towards closing... YAY!!!!! Now... before anyone gets too excited - we haven't rec'd this in writing yet - I won't believe it til I see it. ANNNNNNNNNDDDD we still need a buyer for our house in Keller.

A few pics from our last visit out there:

This is where we are going to build a 'mud room' and attache the house to the garage (which will become living space)...


The kids getting familiar with one of the horses - front pasture:



The back pasture - we haven't walked yet - but soon enough!



This is just an old tree that I thought looked neat - we'll probably have to cut it down...



Little Man Holt headed in to spread his muddy feet around!!



The drive:



Now just pray it all works out! Much love! Heather

well well well... really? a month?

It's been a month since I last blogged - and wow... ALOT is going on!!! Jer and I have finally decided to sell our much beloved domicile and move to the country... Not too far out - but just far enough out so that we have some land to work with and on (and there is a starbucks close enough when Mel comes to visit!!!).

SOOOO.... Mary (Jer's momma and my adopted momma) has been telling us about a house in Midlothian for quite some time and we finally went to check it out last weekend and quite honestly fell in love with it... It's not the house really that we fell in love with - it was the land - and the space and the potential for our kids to learn how to live in a different way than what they can living the city life... Not that I really consider Keller the 'city' - but it is when you lay it all down on the line...

Everything is all up in the air right now - we haven't submitted an offer yet - we haven't listed our house yet (although we are totally going to this weekend once we gut the backyard and make it nice again)... We have alot of positives on our side... Both of us have decent credit - (good actually) - and we've been preapproved twice as of this afternoon...

I have been absolutely trepidatious about the idea of moving because of Hannah... what would she think? would she want to go? what about her dad? what about school? what the hell are we going to do with land? what do you do with a cow when it gets sick - like really??? haha... BUT - Han is totally in - Hud is completely supportive - and hell that gives us FLYING rights!!! haha.. SO that being said -











It has SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much potential... So- those God lovers out there - say a little prayer for this part of the Ljongquist/Moorhead/Holt etc. family... We really hope they accept our offer as is... And we REALLLLY need to sell our place... so - keeps us in your thoughts and send good wishes our way!!!

Much love -

H-J-H-H and H (that's alot of H's!!!!!) :) hee hee

How many times can I say seriously???

Another thing to add to my long list of 'want to's' is to update our family blog more... I mean to - would be AWESOME if I could do it daily - but really... HELLO!!! There are only so many hours in a day...

That being said - I want to chronicle the 'days in the lives' of the Moorheads... Of course the kids... because I'm a bragger (I'm a mom!! HELLO!!!)... But- really I love reading other peoples blogs... Not sure if anyone reads mine - except me... Like over and over again looking for grammatical errors... crap... did I spell that right??? haha.... Over and over again in my head...

ANYWAY... Of late - we've had alot of action going on... Our summer has been pretty lazy - we've been to the pool two or three times... We have albino-ish kids (other than Haden who got Daddy's skin) so mom is a little scared of too much sun - and I always feel like a whale - so... there ya go... haha.... That doesn't really sound like too much action - but with work.. climbing that corporate ladder (Jeremy), keeping the house somewhat in order, spending as much time with the kids as possible, 'family' stuff, visitors, yadda yadda yadda yadda.... (the family stuff is the ACTION!!!)

My sisters came to visit the first week of August... We haven't been together (all of us) in over 5 years... Which is RIDICULOUS... But with a sister in the Navy in Tennessee, a sister married to a Navy man in California and a sister who just had a baby right up the road - it has been insanely impossible for us to be TOGETHER....

I have to say that there was ALOT of anxiety before the visit - not so much on my part... I live here... I deal with 'the parent' anxiety all of the time... But it was a really nice visit... Six Flags, the zoo (which we will probably like NEVER visit again... how any times can you see sleeping animals and monkeys digging in their butts?????) Anyway - my sisters also had the chance to 'meet/see' our brother Lee and his family for the first time in 16 years... which was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE to be back in contact with Lee and his family... His sister Taylor automatically has 3 more sisters!!! and once they meet Jer's side of the family - she and he both have 8 more sisters AND another brother! That's LOTS and LOTS of kids!!!!

This is Me, Beth, Lee, Mel and Taylor... (we couldn't get OUR kids to accommodate!)



This one is a little fuzzy - but Lee's momma is in it.. She and Mike (and Grandma and Grandpa) did a REALLLLLLY good job of raising a good kid...ummm... correction - MAN!!! He's going into the freaking MARINES!!! HELLLO!!!!




Ok - so that part of the girls (Mel and Beth) trip was absolutely the HIGHLIGHT of the week - but me being me - I have to be mushy a little... I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to have my sisters back home... in my home... their little sleepy heads were snoozing under Jer and I's roof....I seriously - felt COMPLETE... While that might be TOTALLY goofy - I LOVE my sisters not only as sisters... I love them as the pretty little awkward kids that they were... The teenagers that I didn't know well enough... And now - the beautiful, smart, talented, loving, driven, "I CAN DO IT ALL", mmmmmpppppcccchhhhwwwwaaaa women that they have become... It's like insanely nutness that we are all about to be in our 30's... Mel has 4.5 months to hit the 30 mark... but WOW... are we REALLLLLLLY here? Did we all freaking buck the system and break the cycle of idiocy??? Honestly - yes, we all did... everyone has their hang ups - but totally conscious of them.... The first step in anything is accepting the fact that you aren't perfect - right??? Whew... (wiping tears away while reading this to Jeremy) - I really am proud of my sisters... and myself... wooo to the freeaaakkkiiinnngg hoo!!! Good job... Kim, Beth, Mel and ME!

In this pic - Beth, Kim and Alex, Hannah, Tab, Caden, Haden, Holton, Me and Mel... :)



I PROMISE (to me) to blog more... and freaking record this crap... (I'm trying not to cuss) - so.... at this point all I've got is - I love you Beth, Mel and Kimberly.... More than I can ever ever say or show... You are my girls... you might POSSIBLY read this if I send you the freaking link... but really... I love you...

Love - Heather Feather....