It Won't Be Like This For Long....

I just heard this song - and it so spoke to my heart - and there are a million moments that I remind myself and Jer that "it won't be like this for long" - To myself I say - THEY won't be this small forever... The won't want me forever, I can only pray that they will love me forever.... BUT this song seriously said it right - " IT WON'T BE LIKE THIS FOR LONG" - Darius Rucker

But really... The frustrations that we feel are coming from so many directions... Work, School, Kids, LIFE!!!! The craptastic economy... But really... What were our reasons for having babies? And now that we have - WHY so much frustration????

I'm thinking a 3 part breakdown - but... really its like 20!!! BUT read...

#1: = DESERVED (for what we did to our parents -knowingly and unknowingly...) You know that you were in your heart a good kid - but you ALSO know the HELLLLLLL that you put your parents through!


#2: WANTED - WE as husband and wife - decided that WE wanted to procreate and cause this freaking chaos and insanity... regardless of how much they scream.... They are still freaking screaming... That means that they are still breathing - and we've kept them alive! That may seem morbid - but seriously - our job until they can function on their own - other than love and shelter - our job is to keep them ALIVE... Mind you - it is almost freaking impossible with 2 boys... Especially Holt - he wants to run, jump, crash INTO EVERYTHING! Sometimes it feels like the only words that I know are "NO! - DON'T do that! - PLEASE STOP!!! and mostly "OH MY GOD HE'S GOING TO KILL HIMSELF!!!!"

I'll go onto #3: NEEDED.... God gave us the most beautiful gift EVER - to be able to have these sweet little babies to bring up and teach and nurture and LOVE LOVE LOVE... But again - I must say they can be TUUUUURDS!!!!! hehehe... No mommy and daddy time anymore - it seems like maybe never again!!! haha... We, as parents have to remember - that as freaking frustrating that 'they' can be - we wouldn't want it any other way - and that it was OUR love that created them... And it is the same thing that will continue to make them strive and grow. IF WE MAKE IT - They have such a better chance... IF we survive the insanity and the chaos and the frustrations - WE can make the biggest imprint on 3 beautiful, smart and talented children - that will one day be sitting here blogging about their own life, children and chaotic lives.

I just hope that they really know how blessd that 'THEY' have made my life. Momma needs to take a step back ALOT more - and recognize how good she has it... Because "It Won't Be Like This For Long".... And to be quite honest - I am really going to miss it.